Chrissy Teigen says she hasn’t ‘fully processed’ the loss of baby Jack

"My third baby will never be here."

Chrissy Teigen has opened up about the harrowing loss of her baby boy Jack. The mum said she hasn't fully processed the death of her son. Teigen was reflecting on her life in New York when she got honest about losing her baby. "Just reminiscing about New York a lot lately, when things were simple, thinking about all the stuff I’ve done and been through not just this year but in my life."

 

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"I’m slightly down lately. It kind of started when I was thinking of my book caption and typed out “my third baby is here!!”, as in the cookbook, then realized my third baby will never be here." She continued: "I realized I threw myself into the book to not think of the real, actual third baby. I don’t really feel like I fully processed Jack and now that I don’t have the alcohol to numb it away, things are just…there, waiting to be acknowledged." Teigen and husband John Legend shared their heartbreaking news last October.

 

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The parents shared photos from the hospital with their followers, "We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough." "To our Jack - I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you," the grief-stricken parents wrote.