"The finality of death takes my breath away."
Karen Koster has opened up about her mother Brenda's sudden death. The presenter said she is still finding it hard to accept that her mum is no longer here.
She explained that they buried her mother over seven weeks ago, but she's still struggling to process the momentous loss.
"It’s been seven weeks since Mum’s funeral and I’m still wondering when the words “my mum died suddenly” will no longer feel so alien coming out of my mouth.
"I had no idea about the tidal wave that is grief and how it ebbs and flows."
"How you don’t get to the end of the tears or stop feeling the shock that you’ve already seen your mum for the last time.
"You’ve already seen her wave you goodbye for the last time, already planned the last big family occasion, or hung up the phone to her forever. The finality of death takes my breath away."
Despite the heartache, Karen said there is some mercy in her mother's passing because she never saw her ill.
"No worrying about test results or trying to organise carers.
"Mum went out like she lived, dignified, private, no burden, just grace. Tending to the beautiful garden she adored which was a playground for her cherished grandkids. Caring & nurturing til the end."
The former Xpose host said she will forever be grateful that her mum was part of her life for 41 years.
"I just wish our kids could have had Nana for a little bit longer."
Karen also took the time to thank all of the people who have supported her since her mum's sudden death.
