This woman's heartbreaking post about losing her mother is a very special read
A truly heartbreaking post.
Nikki Pennington is a blogger at Grief to Hope and she has shared what she went through after losing her mum to brain cancer eight years ago.
It goes without saying that is truly devastating to read but if you're in the same situation as Nikki and have also lost a parent, her words may give you some solace.
The piece was originally shared in November but is getting lots of traction in recent days and it's no surprise considering how beautiful Nikki's words are.
Nikki has previously spoken about her mum was, and still is, her best friend in a moving piece she wrote for Pop Sugar.
The mum of one is 35 now and has a little girl named Lucy and like anyone who has lost a parent, she wishes her mum was still here.
In the post below she talks about how she searches for her mum everywhere even know she knows she's not here anymore. If you're lucky enough to still have your mum, give her a call today.
Here is Nikki's piece in full:
"And when she dies you’ll search for her no matter how long she’s been gone
You’ll search for her the minute she leaves in that very room
You’ll search the sky
You’ll search online
You’ll search group forums
You’ll search old messages
You’ll search old text messages
You’ll search old letters
You’ll search old cards
You’ll search for her
You’ll search old high school yearbooks
You’ll search old photo albums
You’ll search the memories of old friends
You’ll search her things
You’ll even search the crowds
Even though someone told you she’s gone, you’ll still search for her
And when you are walking down the aisle, when your baby is born and when the holidays come around, you’ll search the room for her
When the days are hard and when they are good
When the times are difficult and when they are so good that pure joy is filling your soul
When you are sitting on your back porch trying to sort out all your problems you’ll look over because even if for a minute you’ll be searching for her
Then one day you won’t have to search any longer because you’ll find her
You’ll find her in the gentle breeze
You’ll find her in the words to your favorite song
You’ll find her in your child’s smile
You’ll find her more and more as the days pass and then one day you’ll realize she’s been there all along
You didn’t need to search far to find her because you are her daughter and that means a part of her is always with you".