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14th August 2018
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"We pushed through the next few weeks but I knew I wasn’t right, I was hiding the congratulations cards and my own air made me feel sick, my baby was feeding non stop. "I barely had time to eat or wash and didn’t sleep a single hour- this is all the usual new Mum stuff I know- but this wasn’t me, I felt like I had pushed out my personality as well as a baby."Laura went on to say that she felt like a "ticking time bomb" and that nighttime became a kind of mania where it felt like she was doing everything really quickly. "I was dazed and couldn’t take in the simplest information," she said.
"I would write weird scraps of stuff down on odd bits of paper about my sons routine to try and remind myself but they meant nothing. And then I would be hit with extreme lows where I felt like the world was caving in. I went from wanting to do everything for my little boy to completely ignoring his cries."After a while, Laura's psychosis became so bad that she even believed her son's father was trying to kidnap him.
Eventually, she was hospitalised for two weeks.
"After my intervention- which was the worst night of my life- I was hospitalised for 2 weeks away from my son, bleeding from birth, breasts leaking milk and fully out of my head. "I had no idea where I was. I would sit in group therapy all day every day feeling like my baby had been torn out of my arms."Laura said that her experience may make her seem weak to some, but speaking about her experience has made her stronger. "Birth and motherhood is a shock to the system and traumatic and we shouldn’t have to suffer in silence," she said. You can read the rest of Laura's post here.
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