Kelsey Parker reflects on heartbreaking first Christmas without Tom

"So I survived Christmas."

Kelsey Parker has told her fans about how she found the first Christmas time without Tom Parker. The singer passed away in March of last year after being ill with an inoperable brain tumour. As well as Kelsey, he is survived by their two children - Aurelia and Bodhi. This week, Kelsey told her Instagram followers that her first Christmas without Tom was much harder than she thought it would be. She said: "Hey everyone. So, I survived Christmas. Don’t get me wrong, it was harder than I ever anticipated it would be. "Christmas was so tough for me. The emotions just came in waves, one minute I was happy, one minute I was sad, one minute I was angry." She continued: "But I’m here, and I’ve survived it, and we’re in January, and it’s a new year. I was talking to my friend earlier and I said the only way to describe the waves and the feelings you get is… When I think about Tom I get this wave, and it’s almost like when you lose a set of keys. "You know you have that first feeling and you think, 'Where’s my keys, where’s my keys?' It’s almost like that and I think, 'Where is he?' and I then have to reassure myself and be like, 'He’s not coming back.'" Kelsey added that her responsibilities as a mother helped her cope with the difficult emotions. She also thanked fans for their support over the past few months. "I just wanted to say that I wouldn’t have been able to get through any of this if it wasn’t for you guys," she said. "Your DMs, your messages, everything. I can’t get back to all of you, but you honestly have been the biggest support."

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