"I went into hospital thinking I would come home with a baby girl but I came home with nothing."
Lauren Goodger has requested a post-mortem into her daughter's death after she died following birth earlier this month.
The TOWIE star and her partner Charles Drury had named the little girl Lorena. The pair welcomed their first child, their daughter Larose, last year.
Speaking to
The Sun for the first time since the death, Lauren shared that she hopes an inquiry into why Lorena died will give her clarity.
She told the paper that the pregnancy had been "textbook".
"I went into hospital thinking I would come home with a baby girl but I came home with nothing," she said. "Lorena was a healthy baby and it was a textbook pregnancy."
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Lauren continued: "This is why I am having an autopsy. I need to understand, medically, how she died for my own sanity."
She then described the birth and losing Lorena as the "most traumatic experience" of her life. While she had been planning a home birth, she ended up being rushed to the hospital after experiencing contractions. When they got to the hospital, however, doctors were unable to hear a heartbeat. Lorena had two knots in her umbilical cord, and Lauren was told shortly after that she had passed away.
Previously, Lauren had said that she was "broken" after losing the little girl.
"I am broken," she wrote on Instagram. "I am back home from hospital Me & Charlie spent as much time with our baby girl Lorena and I haven’t said my goodbye yet. Larose, she is the rock that’s getting me through this, or I wouldn’t survive… I will never ever get over this but I will learn how to live every day with Lorena in my heart she will be with me always and I will be with her again one day."
