"You worry about how it's going to end"
Vicky Phelan has opened up about her final days.
The mum spoke openly about her cancer diagnosis in The Sunday Times.
"I think I’d rather die there (in Doonbeg) than here for the kids’ sake. Dying here would be very hard for them. The memory of it."
Vicky said she has her good days and her bad days.
"When I’m well, I’m not. When I’m sick, yes, because you worry about how it’s going to end," she said.
However, Vicky said her biggest worry is ending up with a complication that she would have to be hospitalised for.
"If I end up in hospital, nobody can come in and I’m on my own again and I’ve already spent most of the f***ing year on my own."
"I’m a young woman. I have a strong heart. I was quite fit before I got cancer."
She admitted, "I don’t want to linger — for the kids — but, no matter how much you sedate someone, you still have to wait for the heart to go."
Vicky previously opened up about her prognosis.
She decided to stop chemotherapy in October after returning home from America.
She told Ryan Tubridy on the Late Late Show, "There's nothing they can do for me.
"I just decided no more chemo, I'll just take pembro and hopefully that will keep me going until Christmas," she said.
Vicky said her main focus is to spend quality time with her family.
"My focus now is on remaining as stable and as well as I am now for Christmas, which is less than 6 weeks away....to be able to do the things that are important with my kids."
Vicky Phelan has urged politicians to pass a law that will give people the right to end their lives if they're suffering from incurable illnesses.
She believes voluntary assisted dying will offer people more dignity.
