“He looked so normal and so peaceful.”
Amanda Holden has recalled the stillbirth of her son Theo in an emotional interview.
She and husband Chris Hughes lost the baby at seven months in 2011, an experience that she said was “surreal.”
“I just remember hearing this woman just screaming and screaming and then it was actually — it was me, I realised it was me that was screaming,” she said.
“It was the most surreal, out-of-body experience and I was actually calling my daughter’s name because I was just terrified about what to tell Lexi at the time.
“He looked so normal and so peaceful. I held him in my arms and I said goodbye, basically.”
She said the National Health Service staff who cared for her in the aftermath got her and her husband through the ordeal.
“I couldn’t have done it without the incredible team around us.
“My husband was so strong and so amazing but they got him through it too.
“And then the days and months afterwards, the same team of people checked on us every single day and it’s not because I’m off the telly or famous or anything like that.
“I believe they’d have extended that care to any woman, any family, in my situation.”
She and Chris are now mum and dad to daughters Lexi, 12, and six-year-old Hollie.
“I now thankfully have two healthy girls and a little boy who is still part of the family but just not here.”
Amanda lost another baby to miscarriage in 2010.