As a whole load of people – some of them now parents and some of them not – will attest, infertility is one of the hardest battles you can fight.
It’s physical, it’s emotional – it’s a rollercoaster that consumes and absorbs and feeds into almost every part of your life.
And now, one woman and eventual mother of triplets has written a heart-wrenching letter which she begins with “Dear Infertility…”
It was published recently on the Love What Matters Facebook page and details the many lows and eventual highs of her journey to pregnancy.
Here, we have published an edited version of her powerful message…
Dear Infertility,
I hated you.
You steal dreams. You break hearts. You bring grief. You consume lives. You are the reason I couldn’t get pregnant on my own. You drowned my heart in deep misery from the inability to become a Mother how most women do. You told me that my body wasn’t good enough.
Infertility, there are so many things you brought with you when you entered my life. It wasn’t just that I couldn’t get pregnant. You brought me more tears than I ever thought I could shed.
Because of you I laid on my bathroom floor in complete emptiness after countless negative pregnancy tests time and time again I had to endure shots, bruises, and all kinds of meds because when you are infertile and you seek fertility treatment for help, that is what you are in for.
You are expensive and exhausting physically, emotionally, and mentally. Infertility, you drowned my heart in disappointment and agony.
As much as I hated you, Infertility, I am also so thankful that you were my story. You made me strong.
And infertility, it is because of you that I get to be a Mom to Charlize, Sawyer, and Jax. This love that I get to experience with them is absolutely undeniable. It is the greatest feeling in the world and if you weren’t part of my story, I would be missing out on a truly honorable role as their Mommy.
It is because of you that I have a greater understanding of what hope really is. Hope does not disappoint. Hope is having faith for what seems impossible. My journey to parenthood was nothing short of hope. Infertility, today, when I really reflect on those years when you were apart of my life, I can only say, Thank you.
Sincerely,
Mama of Hope.
