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17th Feb 2022

Nick Cannon admits he feels “heavy guilt” after death of his baby boy

Ellen Fitzpatrick

His son died in December.

Nick Cannon has opened up about the “guilt” he feels when he looks back on his son’s death and how he has gone through therapy which has helped him “learn and grow.”

In December of last year, Nick revealed the awful news that his and Alyssa Scott’s son Zen who they welcomed in June had died at five months old after suffering from a rare brain tumour.

Speaking on his own talk show, the 41-year-old said that during the last days of Zen’s life, he “made an effort to spend the most quality time” and took him to the ocean.

Nick also shared footage of himself and his therapist Dr. Laura Berman on an episode of her podcast, The Language of Love, saying: “I am a work in progress, and therapy has been an important tool in helping learn and grow and navigate through my unconventional personal life.”

Nick explained during his conversation with Dr. Laura that “the one thing that keeps me up at night” is “heavy, heavy guilt with the fact that I didn’t get to spend time like I really wanted to with Zen.”

Continuing, he said: “That I have other children even in a similar age that I was like, “OK, I’m guilty that I’m not there every day. I’m guilty that the mothers of my children yearn for more and I can only give so much.”

The TV presenter also acknowledged that “the harder that I work, then it makes the guilt easier to deal with.”

After Zen tragically passed away, Nick shared a tribute to his late son on Instagram last month, saying: “Still missing my little dude… His Spirit and brightness were soo strong #ZensLight.

“To be absent from the body, is to be present with the Lord”. 2Corinthians 5:8 The whole family, We ALL miss you young King! Forever Our Angel! (sic).”