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24th Sep 2017

Rio Ferdinand opens up about heartbreak telling his kids their mother was dying

His autobiography Thinking Out Loud is available now.

Denise Curtin

 “She’s going to go up into the stars.”

Former Man Utd star, Rio Ferdinand has opened up in his new autobiography about the devastating moment he told his children their mother was passing away.

In his book Thinking Out Loud, the 38-year-old star recalls the tragic moment.

He wrote:  “I gazed at my beautiful children, lost for words, searching for a way to begin. ‘I’m afraid I’ve got to tell you something very, very sad. ‘Mum’s not going to be able to get out of here. She’s got cancer again and this time she isn’t going to get better’. They stared at me, wide-eyed, dumbstruck.‘They’ve been trying to help her, the doctors, but they can’t any more. She’s been strong, and she’s tried to get better, but I’m so sorry.”

He continued….

“She’s going to be a star, she’s going to go up into the stars as a spirit, and she’ll always be there in the sky, looking down on us and…’ I couldn’t go on. Tears were streaming down the children’s faces; they were sobbing, crying out. I tried to explain again, but we were beyond words by then, engulfed in a firestorm of pain. Even now, the memory of that scene is enough to plunge me back into a darkness I never want to see again.”

The England star opened up about how hard it was for his three children Lorenz, ten, Tate, eight, and Tia, six, to comprehend the news.

“As the children broke down and sobbed, I held them tight, staring out of the window. All I could think was, ‘F*****g hell, could someone please help me?’ he sadly revealed.

Rio’s wife Rebecca passed away aged 34 after her breast cancer reoccurred. She fought a tough eight week battle with the cancer, including intense chemotherapy before passing away May 1, 2015.

In the autobiography, Ferdinand describes how he fell to pieces once she died and also recalled his final moments with her.

He said: “To some this may sound strange, possibly even macabre, but to me it felt only natural. I slept in Rebecca’s bed that night, curled up beside her for one final time, feeling the warmth drain away from her, while her mum slept on a camp bed by the window.”

You can read Rio Ferdinand’s autobiography Thinking Out Loud in The Sun here.