A woman has announced her pregnancy in an incredibly powerful and bittersweet way.
According to The Huffington Post, Macy has been documenting her fertility journey on her ‘Martinis and Medicine’ blog since 2014.
Last month, she announced on Instagram that she and her partner are expecting their first child after years of heartbreak and fertility treatments.
In her latest blog post, she explained: “We’re some of the lucky ones. It only took 4 years, 3 miscarriages, depression, 107 hormone injections, one surgery, two procedures, over 100 suppositories, and several thousand dollars to get our baby.
“You might ask how I say that we’re lucky. We’re lucky because we get to have a baby. So many women don’t. Even more go through multiple rounds of fertility treatments to get their baby.”
She continued: “Our baby doesn’t erase years of loss, depression, hopelessness, pain, tears, and crying out to God. Our baby doesn’t replace the babies that were lost years before. The twin that was lost, or our eight tiny embryos that just weren’t strong enough to make it to our transfer and freezing.
“Our eight tiny babies. Each and every one of them. They were people. But with our infertility we just couldn’t make them strong enough. It’s bittersweet, our little one that is in me now.
“This baby had nine siblings that aren’t here. Just like the three before them. This is infertility. There aren’t blessings in infertility. There are blessings in spite of infertility.
“What our baby does do is fill us with a love and joy and gratefulness that I never knew possible. When I look at that ultrasound my heart actually skips.
“For years I lived never knowing if I would ever have an ultrasound photo hanging on my fridge. If I would ever have a bump or see that coveted stretch mark on my belly, or if the baby clothes I bought for friends would ever hang in my own home. If life would ever grow inside of me.
“And against all odds, it does. I’m so in love I can hardly stand it. There will be hard days, I know. We’ve longed for them for years.”
The couple are apparently expecting a baby boy and are busy preparing for their new arrival.
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For more on Macy’s story, visit her blog here. If you have any questions regarding fertility or family planning, please consult your doctor.
